Skipped Classes.. again =(

Today i purposely tak go to class.. =( ..yeah orite, orite you can just kutuk or angry or whatever at me.. because i pun dah tak tahu ape nak buat with my own self, even though lots of people have given me advice and everything its just working only for few days then im back to suke ponteng :-S.. how am i gonna get jayyid or jayyid jiddan or mumtaz with my attitude macam ni?. im just so lucky that i got good results for last year (good result i mean like with my attitude suke poteng and malas study last year? its just so lucky).. im lucky last year, but this year who knows what will happen, right? (na'uzubillah for what i've just thinking just now)..

 I just donno ape nak buat dah ni,.. i do felt regret whenever i skip classes but then the feeling of regret just keeps going and going and going and going.. well, of course because i keep skipping classes.. its just stupid right when you feel regret about something that you make yourself  but still you keep repeating it again and again and again.. what am i gonna do with myself?? i just wish my parent are here so that i could actually realize how hard they're working find money to pay my fees here, plus for my sisters and brothers which is still studying so they need money too right for their University and school fees..

 Sometimes i wish i could just be a dentist without going to classes every morning, without listening to what the doctorah or doctor lecturing infront, without studying, without exams and etc.. i just wish that i have special dentist brain or special power that i could just like hypnosis (macam cerite vampire's diaries tu) people so that they can just let me be a dentist without going through all this studying thing =) but i know it can only happen in my dream.. so 'alia aqilah! stop day dreaming..!

 I think need a counsel, not think but i really need one.. no no no i need a rehab special for laziness.. is there any? or maybe Damon (in vampire's diaries) could just easily take out my memory about me being a lazy ass and fill it in with studiousness.. can psychiatrist do like that?? if can, i really need to find one..take me to them! fast!

 Ummi, Baba im so sorry for being such a lazy daughter here.. i will try my best not to skip classes again! i promise starting from tomorrow Insyallah.. i'll gather up my "rajinness" to vs my laziness or ignore what people gonna "egg on" to skip classes, not to study or etc even if its got to do with any dot.dot.dot ships and etc..
Hopefully it happen in real life tomorrow.. =)