i like you but...

When im online, the first name that I’ll be looking at is you.

But you’re not online.

I wait and wait when you will online.

While im waiting for you to be online, my heart “duuuupp daaaaapp” “duuuuuppp daaaappp”..

But then when I saw your name online, my heart went “dup dap” "dup dap” “dup dap” really fast.. 

Then i'll stare at your online name for hours thinking whether to say Hi or not.. my heart say a big YES but my shyness is too strong.. so i keep starring at your online name for hours and hours..

When i have guts to say Hi, while im typing suddenly your name went offline.

I said to myself, its not my luck today maybe next time.

I didn't go offline in case you'll be online in anytime.

While waiting for you to be online, i stalk your pictures in your facebook albums..

every photo that you uploaded, i read every comment that your friends commented.

every comment that your girl-friends commented i felt so jealous of her, even only one word comment.. because i can't even say "hi" to you..

I wait and wait but still no sign of you online .

The next morning, first thing i will do is to check on you again even though i know you'll be still sleeping that time.. 

Keep staring at your Yahoo ID, "when will you be online?" "should i send him offline wake up message?" "what time are you going to classes?" "will i meet you on the way to classes, coincidently?".. thats what keep going around in my mind every morning.  

After i got back from classes, the first thing i'll go to is the computer.. looking at your yahoo ID, i know you'll be online that time.
But i don't know how to start the conversation, so i pretend to ask a question even though i already know the answer.
"hi"
"may i ask some question"
"how to....."
.
.
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"hi back"
"sure"
"....."
even though your answered is only one word answered, i was really happy that you actually answered my question.
i pretend to ask another question again, but then i saw you were typing..
so i wait..
.
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"sorry, somebody is coming."
"tc"
.
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i was really happy, because you said "take care"..
so i quickly reply
"tc too"

After that first "hi" i have courage to say hi and chat with you.
We becomes close to each other,
although you always pick on me
i was still really happy and blooming.
nearly everyday we chatted,
even though i have to go back and fourth to the cyber cafe.
 But then it was exam time, you and i was busy studying
So we didn't online that much.
After the exam there was holidays.
We never chat again after that.


There once a program, i didn't know that you are coming. suddenly you poop out of nowhere and say "hi" to me.
though you still pick on me that day
Do you know how i felt that time?
 i was very and really HAPPY that you actually still remembered and recognized me.
i pretend to be normal until the program finished and went back home.
i can't even stay still, i felt like i was so lucky that day.
I went to see if you are online somewhere.
but there are no news of you.


The next program, i was hoping you come.
but i did not see your face anywhere.
suddenly there was a bell
"ting tong"
but it was your friend.

The night of the program, you came.
you stand next to me, but you ignored me.
that was a heart broken.
i say "hi", but you ignored me
i said to myself maybe you didn't hear it.
i called you, you look at me then face away.
the third time i try, but you shout at me infront of other people.
that was really a heartbroken.
i try to ask you what happen, but again you ignored me.
i said sorry, again you ignored me.
You went away to your friends, talking, laughing, smiling with your friends.
At the end of the program, you called me in the room.
the moment i went in the room, you pulled me and said
"stop all this"

From then, i know that you never liked me.

p/s - this does not applicable to me okay? =D